refuge

my refuge is in my prayers
the one i've been praying in variations
since we met
it gives me some solace some peace
of mind to give this back to god
to lay it down to bow to this gift

Ganesh
Thank you for this time together
for this food and laughter and love
and for the incredible sweetness
it brings to our lives
I give thanks for Emily and Seth
Bless them and keep them safe
may our meals and our time nourish
us and keep us close to you
so that we can offer this
all back to you
It is so good, this life, these loves
So good
I offer it up to you with all my heart


how can i carry this gift
how can i hope to bear
the weight of this joy you bring
it washes along on our tears
sometimes and yet i remember
how lucky i am
to have this great feeling

i love you so fiercely
to do so i risk what i value most
my marriage my long life partnership
there is no map
i have only myself to guide me
my heart points to you
i hope to be greater than not enough
too much in the best ways
i want to make my way and take on
this challenge of huge growth

there is no guide book
in any relationship
always risk always new terrain
you are worth risking because you are
what i value most
i offer my heart
break it i will open wider
close this door
i will sing lullabyes at the keyhole and
wait for your perfume to
drift between the sill and the door